A Whole Wheel of Cheese

My mood has been changing constantly lately. I was really happy today, and not just because I went to an OSU football game.

I was thinking about why the hell I was feeling so crummy during my last post. It didn't make sense to me, because I don't think there was really a legitimate reason to be so unhappy. Sure, I was lied to--a lot--but it doesn't matter.

So, I've told myself to stay happy, or pretend to be happy if I don't have a good reason to be sad. Now, I know it's not good to pretend to be something you're not, but when I'm unhappy for no reason, I tend to be a bitch, and I regret it later. I'm sure people don't like talking to me when I'm a bitch. So...... if I don't have a decent reason to be a bitch, I'm not going to be one, even if I just "feel like it", because I don't think that's a good enough reason. Rejoice! ^.^

It sucks.. Subjects I would usually feel laid back talking about are beginning to irritate me. Like, when people joke about women being subordinate back in the old days.. I used to not care. But now it bothers me. A lot. It's not funny. I'm tired of hearing guys say that's how it should be again, even if they're just playing around. All we were good for were childbirth and housework. I find that rather disheartening.

Another subject that bothers me now that didn't so much before is religion. I used to be a Jehovah's Witness. It was cool.. Except for the whole going door-to-door thing, that sucked, which is why I never did it but once. And if I were to believe that any religion would be the "Path to Salvation," I would go with that one. But I'm more of an Atheist than anything nowadays. Sometimes, I might question the possibility that maybe there is a god, but usually I just don't. I'm fucking sick of people pushing their beliefs onto me, as if their telling me that my way of life is wrong will actually succeed in manifesting faith within me.... You're just going to make me hate you even more than I did before (if I did before, and if I didn't hate you before, I would just hate you).

The other day, I was walking by some people, my friends, in the hallway at school. They were standing outside a room waiting to be interviewed for an FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes, if you live a sheltered life and didn't already know what that stood for) officer position. Someone asked me if I was applying for a position, and I was like, "No. I'm not even in FCA." They asked why I wasn't in FCA and I told them I was an Athieist, and after enduring their blank stares for a few seconds, I added, "...I don't believe in god."

They don't even talk to me anymore. Well, one of them still does, but I think she thought I was joking, maybe. But that's stupid though.... They all got along great with me before they knew I didn't share their beliefs. It's not like I'm a Satan worshipper--I don't believe in him either.

Anyway, my point is, I think religion should be an entirely private part of someone's life. I think people should go to great lengths to keep their religion and beliefs out of other people's lives.

I'm glad though.

Oh wait...... It's Saturday night......... Which means tomorrow is SUNDAY! And that means the day after is MONDAY! Which means a whole new week of school.. I wish I had a clone to send to school, along with my other reason. Or at least go every other day and send the clone every other day I didn't go. That would be cool, because I can't skip too much or I'll fail, which means I won't graduate, which means I'll either have to repeat this year or settle for the unrewarding life of an undergraduate or whatever. Sundays suck.