Boo Berry

Ponder the wise words of an Irishman: A day without a book is like a day without sunshine.

Being an assistant in the library isn't all that great like I hoped it would be.... Mrs. Cawfield assured that I would have little work to do, but that was when we were under the assumption that we'd be in the new high school by the beginning of this school year. But you know what happens when you make assupmtions.... You assume things, that's what happens. And when you assume things, you make a resumé...... And when you make a resumé, you get a job, and when you get a job, you get paid, and when you get paid, you buy things, and when you buy things, you have those things either for yourself or for someone else. Or instead of buying things after you get paid from working at your job you got with your resumé after assuming, you can just save the money in case you need it sometime in the future.

I realized something....

I don't have a center point to my life.. My life doesn't tend to revolve around one major thing.... So when something new and big comes into my life, it looks as if it's the only thing there because everything else is cast in shadow. I can't think of anything but that something. And whether or not that's good, I don't know.

When someone asks me what's so unique about me, what can I say? I don't know what it is that's special about me.

Other people, they have their sports, their music, their art...... What do I have?

Hmm, I guess when you look this good, you don't need anything like that. *wink*

But everyone assumes that I'm all about art; drawing and painting and the like.... It's not a big part of my life at all. Maybe I should make it one..... But I don't know if I want to.

I looked at my horoscope today, just like every other day I remember to:

Aries
March 20 - April 18
8/25/05
A new and exciting potential love relationship could pop into your life today, dear Aries. This is apt to be the kind of instant attraction that sets your nerves tingling and your blood boiling! Whether or not you decide to pursue this attraction, of course, depends on your situation, but whatever you decide, you're likely to enjoy feeling the thrill of it today. Therefore, make sure you look your best when you go out! You'll be glad you did!

How dumb. Hell yeah it depends on my stuation...... Usually my horoscopes are more meaningful and accurate. (I bet not a one of you would have ever guessed I look into horoscopes.)

Here's another for today from a different source:

Your life is in flux right now, and you're yearning for some degree of permanence. If dropping hints about inheriting a family heirloom doesn't work, try looking for a project that will let you craft heirlooms for yourself. (Family heirloom? What the hell..?)

It's more important to take the right action as opposed to taking any action at all. Figure out what the real problem is before you start expending your energy willy-nilly. You'll see much better results.

You are coming into the world from a very strong position today, so milk it for all it's worth. You can get people to agree to almost anything.

This is a day for all amorous hopes: your senses and your heart will vibrate in unison, your magnetism will be intense and your power of seduction will increase tenfold. (Too bad it's going to go to waste....) In your work, you'll be able to go around obstacles. Those natives who're vulnerable to rheumatic ailments will have to take special precautions this time. Your imagination will be more fertile than ever, and you'll hit upon ideas that will astonish many people.

My 2005 Overview (This one scares me..)

OVERVIEW: As the year begins, Aries, your focus will quickly shift from play to work -- hard work. After the 10th of January, in fact, it will be tough to talk you into doing anything other than putting your nose to the grindstone. You'll be able to reach your goals more easily, though, so it will be well worth your time and energy to put everything else aside -- for now, at least. Once March arrives, however, you'll be far more interested in taking care of your health and appearance -- and you'll do a great job of it, too.

A solar eclipse in early April will make this a month to remember, and if you're single, this astral equation could also indicate a new relationship. Keep your eyes open after the 1st of April for someone who's extremely sensual and quite focused -- on you! (Holy shit..) Be sure they're not too focused, though. You know how you get when you feel smothered.

Summer will be an entirely different story. By July, you'll be enjoying lots of freedom, travel, and new experiences. (Word.) Keep your passport current and your suitcases handy. The full Moon of August 19th will also bring along a chance for you to start a new hobby. Don't pass this one up!

By fall, you may be thinking of making a major career move -- one that's entirely possible. After the 17th of October, you may also be making your way along a whole new relationship path. Either way -- or both ways, perhaps -- you'll enjoy this new start, and so will those who choose to accompany you. The holidays look just wonderful, full of lots of good feelings and lots of surprises under the mistletoe. A new Moon on New Year's Eve will put you in the mood to get back to business after weeks of festivities. Go for it!

Weird as hell....

I'm not too into astrology.. Just a little. I won't be all like, "Uh, the stars say we're not compatible, so get the hell away." That's just dumb.

My mom set my bedtime every night to eleven.... How gay. She used to not give a crap how late I stayed up as long as I was able to get up in time the next morning to get ready for school.... which is what I've been doing every goddamned morning. But she's mad at me for taking naps when I get home from school, because she says these naps I've been taking cause me to stay up late again the next evening. So anytime she's aware of me napping in my room after school, she wakes me up and yells at me.
Last night I went to bed at midnight-thirty though. There was no way in hell I was going to go to bed at eleven after waiting two hours to talk to my boyfriend, to whom I hadn't gotten a chance before last night to speak with since Saturday. I would have only had like, twenty minutes if I went to bed at eleven. Fuck that. I was pissed.
My mom tends to take up a ton of phone time each night. Like, two hours usually. But she said she'd try to minimize her calls down to thirty minutes a night, but it doesn't happen.

My mom and I have never really gotten along. I can hardly wait to get the hell out.

I shouldn't wear tight shirts anymore. Or at least not very often. I should wear more T-shirts. And blouses too, I guess. I noticed that when I wear tight shirts, I look slutty. Though my guy friends tend to disagree. Ugh... I don't want to have my goods on display. >_> =P

Now I feel weird.... because I think there are more guys that read my blog than girls..... Oh well.

Damn.... Gotta go to Computer Technology class here soon. Stupid stupid stupid......

I wonder how many newspaper stories I can get done today. They're due today for paste-up, but I still have two to finish. I already helped Wesley out with two, and writing two more will be easy.

Idiot bell...

And someone wrote on my locker today that I was hot and sexy..... but whoever it was, they spelled my name wrong. v_v

And I'm disappointed..... very strongly disappointed..... that my brother Patrick will be attending AIT in TEXAS. Fucking Texas... Nobody likes you but Texans, Texas.

I'm also disappointed to know that I have a southern accent. A slight one, but an accent nonetheless. I never noticed until I went to Michigan. I guess that's what I get for living in Oklahoma for the better part of seven years.... I hope it doesn't get worse.

I live in Oklahoma. Wow. I remember when I lived in Missouri, I would be all excited to get to go to Oklahoma to visit my grandma. Well, now that I live here, the excitement just kind of drifted away.. Oklahoma's cool and all.... but whatever.