Questionable

I'm tired of waking up every morning. I'm tired of being here. I'm tired of feeling so unmotivated that I just lay on my bed for hours, doing nothing but waiting and thinking, probably making things seem worse than they really are.

I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of realizing I'm being lied to, because I'm thinking maybe I'd be happier if I wasn't smart enough to catch on..

When you lie to someone, you belittle that person's intelligence.

But someone doesn't need to tell me something just to make me feel better. I don't need a fucking ego boost. Someone doesn't need to tell me something because they think it'll make me like them more, because it's not going to happen.

Why lie to me like that? Why say that to me? When I think back to previous conversations, it makes no fucking sense!

I've never been so confused in my life.

There are probably five people in the world who I truly give a shit about.

I'm sick of responsibility, while also sick with envy of those who can slough it off. Sick of the apparent lack of concern for important and life-changing situations.. Sick of the lack of serious approach to serious matters.. I'm sick of myself for having to struggle to see what others seem to view so clearly.

I don't know what to do.

By now, I'm not sure if there's anything I would do. Maybe it's best to just leave it up to chance. And if chance crushes what I have, then maybe it's best to just sit back in torment as I watch my happiness burn away like a New Year's bonfire..

It isn't fair.

Though a lot of things have been made evident, there are still even more questionable concerns..

I'm so nervous..

Aries Horoscope
You're following your dreams--literally. Images in your sleep are showing you the way.

If that's the case, then in about five or six months, my life is going to hell.



```Actions speak louder than words, and words can lie. Actions can be, and commonly are, misunderstood, but they never lie.```