"Artistic"

Last night, I got incredibly bored so I decided to draw something. When I started the drawing, my ink pen was completely full. Now, it has less than half the amount of ink in it. I'll scan it sometime and put it on here, maybe. I like it a lot, it took me an hour and a half to create.

It was the first thing I had drawn in months.

A long time ago, I forgot why it was I would draw and paint.... but last night, it really came back to me as I was drawing.

Is it not odd how marks on a piece of paper can resemble something we are familiar with in our lives? Sometimes, I like to draw angels. My drawings that depict angels are not angels.... they're strategically-placed marks that allow one to notice the resemblance between the stereotypical image of an angel and the marks I've created on a sheet of paper.

I find it so strange that someone can be so gifted enough to do that. Yet, I'm also surprised that not everyone has the ability to do so, because I always used to believe they just lacked the will.

A lot of people would call me an artist. Or they would call me artistic. I didn't see myself that way, so I would tell them time after time to stop saying that. And I was usually not very nice about it.

Last night, one of the very few people that I allow to watch me draw said to me, "You're such a great artist."

I slightly blushed and said, without thinking, "Thank you."

That really made me stop and think. Is it fair for me to tell others not to call me as they see me? Is it not common sense to describe a person who creates art artistic?

I guess the reason I didn't want to be called an artist is I thought it would be more difficult to get somewhere in life with it, at least, in the way I would want to, so I tried to stop building on what artistic talent I had.

It seems that even after months, one's talent still remains firmly intact. I didn't care if it did, and honestly, I hoped it would slip away forever.

I'm glad now that it didn't. I forgot how happy it makes me to see the end result turn out just as I had wanted.

I don't know what exactly it is I plan on doing for the rest of my life. I have almost no idea what career I have in mind.. But I'm almost certain I'm not going to be an artist of any sort. I don't want to make a career out of that, because it's not always something I enjoy doing.... Though the thought of creating a graphic novel entices me..

Anyway.. To sum up pretty much this whole post, I'm getting more into my artistic talent.