Love???

At times, I would get this insistent feeling that there is no one out there who is.... "right for me." I mean, there's really no guarantee that you'll find someone. Someone who you love like no one and nothing else. Someone who you love so much.. that it hurts being without them. AND, to find someone who will love you just as much?? Probably impossible.

There are always people who might say, "Oh Sarah, you'll find your 'soulmate' eventually."
Or, "If it's meant to be, then everything will work out, Sarah."

'Meant to be'?! When people say that to me, it makes me want to slap them.. What do they know? How would they know? I think it is so ridiculous to think that solely existing in the grace of God guarantees you a soulmate. Ugh! The very idea that one is promised true, lasting love by simply living in this world.... Unreasonably laughable. That is just a fantasy, a wistful fabrication created by the feeble-minded to keep hopes alive. I'm an atheist.


How old do you have to be to know what it means to love? Where is the line that dictates the end of youthful obliviousness and the beginning of enlightened consciousness?


Just because I am young does not mean I do not know how I feel, or how I want to feel... I want a love like nothing else. Nothing rehashed or cliche, not the same old "falling in love" experience that eveybody else has, but something just for me and whoever loves me most. A love that is truly unparalleled. Someday I want to love (and be loved) with convincing ardency, and such sentiment that is, undeniably, beyond compare.




~My Beloved~
"For where thou art, there is the world itself, and where thou art not, desolation."